I’m more scared than I realized to launch a blog. People will be reading my words and taking them in and either being encouraged by them or judging me because of them, and that’s scary. It’s probably that fear that’s kept me in hiding for so long.

But then, thanks to Jesus, I’m reminded that I don’t matter all that much.

No, this isn’t a moment of self-loathing or getting down on myself. I know my incredible worth in Jesus. But really, I’m just a person.

Just a person that God set a fire inside.

Just a person who was made in the image of God.

And sure, I worry about saying the right thing and writing about things that matter, but in the end I’m just doing this because God inspired me to. And He wants me to write. And if God wants me to write then I am just a channel for Him to speak through.

Most people will probably just shrug me off as just another blogger. Or talk behind my back (or right in my face as is the custom on social media these days) on how I need to improve. But maybe, just maybe, it will be exactly what one person needs to hear.

And that’s all that matters.

Emily P. Freeman is one of my favorite authors, and in her beautiful book “A Million Little Ways” she reflects,

“What if you desire to do a particular thing because God created you a particular way, not to tease you or to make you miserable, but to actually mold you into becoming more like him, for his glory and the benefit of others?” 

My blogging days go back to the days of high school and Xanga, but as I became an adult I begrudgingly realized that everyone was already blogging and almost gave up because obviously anything that I wanted to write about had already been published. But yet again, Emily P. Freeman’s words spoke to my heart,

“Just because he is saying something you want to say doesn’t mean you shouldn’t say it too…..The world needs you awake and alive. Does the world need another book? Song? Painted living room? Not necessarily. But the world does need you to come alive right where you are and not where you wish you were.” (A Million Little Ways)

Every single one of us has a unique past, unique personality, and unique desires. That makes our impact on the world different than any others’. Instead of competing with those surrounding us, we need to look up and see how God wants to uniquely shine through our lives and show the world something about Himself.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.”  Proverbs 3:5-6

“Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6